Back to Sandakan

morning everyone....im ready to go back home to sandakan. Didn't get to meet the kampung folks cos' jalan dorang lumpur sampai pinggang..ok bye...Supposed to move out of here at 8am tapi punyalah the driver baru bangun at 8am. He can be irritating sometimes cos' of his ignorance over small details. Working in a men's environment, can really be upsetting sometimes when they choose to ignore what women say. The drivers are 'good' examples, here are some of their remarks;

Woman: kita jalan jam 10am.
"jam 10? jam 11 la jalan. bukan mo cepat juga"

Woman: si A tidak ikut tu.
"napa c A (c A adalah lelaki) tidak ikut ini outstation, kalau dia ikut ada juga kawan saya d sini" (due to his inability to converse with women)

Woman: Ok, hantar saya balik, c B belum mau jalan. Saya jalan duluan..
"ko mo jalan sekarang? JAM tu d luar sana, saya tunggu c B, baru saya jalan" (c B adalah lelaki)

Woman: bsuk kita jalan jam 8am..
(Bisuk nya jam 8am sa call dia) "sa baru bangun"

And many more. Everytime this happens, the first thing i want to do is get angry and nag. But a strong part of me said if you can handle this then you can survive. But another part of me said -kumpul2 dulu, nanti klu ada yg telampau bikin panas baru ko bomb semua- hahahaha....! Another part of me said im being sensitive, well cos' im a woman. Most of the time, i see it in a moral angle. Respect is the word. But maybe these people i've encountered, they don't have the eyes to see respect, they just see the superiority of gender. Or maybe i'm just being critical. No matter how i interpret it, the bottomline is these incidents are not right. Am i sure im not just being sensitive? Yes, cos' the heart never lies.

Ok got to go....bye

2nd fieldwork for this year

In Marudu again, i's staying overnite here but i will be working in Pitas tomorrow. Here i am sitting in my room, having orange juice, watching a weird movie in cinemax and fulfiling Mandy's wish for me to write up my blog. It seems that i dont know what to say these days. But for my so called twin, here you are dik...apa tu 'palan2, lama2 pandai penuh juga kan'.... ok ini psycho guy in the movie about to kill someone...........aiiyaaaa...he just did! budus.

tomorrow im going to go to some villages in Bengkoka forest reserve, hopefully we can pass the bad roads. sometimes i wonder who is supposed to maintain these roads, the YBs or the other gov. authority. If you go to the central of Sabah in Tongod sub-district, i think it's the worst road i've been so far. part of it is of course the weather but still alibis that we cannot avoid such as "bad weather" is not supposed to permit us to just stay out of the situation. Roads play a major factor of development in rural areas, in fact in anywhere! no roads no development..

*sigh*...critical. i dont want to be critical tonite...i just want to relax and just write my heart out. but my heart is critical about that topic..maybe that's why i chose to work in this field, community forestry. The big guns will normally say 'you can't fulfill every person's wish'.... whatever.

dik...is this a good start?

Oh the psycho guy in the movie died, stabbed by the woman he obsessively, secretly and psycholy loved...kasian...